I think as one gets older, each loss piles on top of the last,
the sum of grief, small and large, accumulates. They abate...
but with every new one every old one returns, dropping fresh
like stones from the sky, crushing, bruising, breaking.
Your first grief from earliest childhood, tiny, the loss of a
favorite toy haunts. But then as you age grandparents go, and
aunts and uncles and parents... and pets. Sometimes siblings,
worst, children.
And all this grief accumulates and fades and reappears,
new weight,
heavy, with every fresh grief.
And eventually, advancing in age, the loss of even
a dog or a cat brings forth a cascade, an avalanche,
crushing weight of all the remembered loss,
lost anew
Too great to bear, too much to hold.
The dam breaks, the tears burst forth,
flooding,
crushing
and
drying, end
and all the mornings of the world cease
And grief ends and begins anew
Shuffled off
upon the shoulders of others
if you're lucky
Because if you're lucky, there are people who are grieved at losing you
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Monday, December 6, 2021
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